Trying to change...

This weekend didn't go as plan and part of is my fault because if things don't go my way then I can be a totally you know what! I wanted this and that and I didn't get it and so I put on my silent treatment towards hubby and then the Witch came out.
As the day went on I started to thinking about everything that happened, I realized I am trying change my husband into something he isn't, I fell in love with him and I married him and he is the same person he was 9 years ago, so why I am trying to change him.
I see other couples and what kind of relationship they have and I judge my husband for not doing what that other husband is doing, which is hurtful and wrong.I have a great husband, I may not get flowers or cards but he really does give me so much more,I just need to realize what is important. He is a good man, he has an amazing heart and he loves me for just me! I am a big girl and he finds me beautiful and sexy ( even though i don't believe him). He is an amazing father and he thrives to take care of us. I know he loves me and 7 years later I just don't understand why he is even with me! I don't know how I got so blessed, instead of trying to change him I need remind my self everything he does for me and our family.
We may fight and we bicker at each other but we have a great relationship and we have a strong love for each other.
I realize I dont want him to change because he is the man that God made for me...

Blood Pressure...

So I have been dealing with high blood pressure for a few weeks now. I had the same issues when I was pregnant with Elijah so it came to no surprise to us that it would happen with her. I hate this because now I have to do a 24 hr urine collection which is no fun because I have to keep it in the fridge and return the awesome bright orange pee holder tomorrow to the Dr. I am also trying different blood pressure medicines which again I hate because I am shaky and dizzy and I get horrible headaches.
On August 16 I have to go to a high risk Dr. Dr. Smith is her name and she is out at Mercy. My mom is going with my since my hubby is going to be at work. I am really nervous about going and I am really not sure. I know we are doing all this so I don't end up in ICU again after she is born like I did with Elijah.
So that is what is going on in Pregnant land right now. I will let you know what the Dr says!!

Have a great Sunday!!!

Because Of Him...

I have an amazing husband. We have been together for 7 years and life is wonderful and it is all because of him. He may not give me cards or flowers but He gives me so much more and nothing he writes in a card can come anywhere close to what he already does for me.
Because Of him we have a good life because he strives to take care of our family.
Because of him I know I will never stand alone he is always by my side ready to fight my fights and hold my hand.
I know how to laugh at my self more.
I am a better mother.
Because of him he makes my fears go away with just a hug and kind words.
I know he will always protect me.
Because of him I pray more.
I am stronger women because of him.
I smile for no reason.
Because of him I have still get butterfly's in my stomach .
and because of him I know what true love is...

He gives me so much just by being my husband, father to my children and my partner in this life God has blessed us with. He is my rock and my best friend and I thank God everyday for giving me a man who can put up with me!! Because of him I will always be loved and happy.
Thanks you for everything you do for us.

Come on Friday...

I am lonely tonight, Hubby we started a new job last week so now he lives in a different town during the week. Last week was HORRIBLE!!! I got sick and it was such a long week with out my love there to make me feel better, so by Thursday I was done and in tears most of the day. I ended up in the ER because I was sick with a stomach thing and I ended getting dehydrated, so I had to get some fluids and the whole time I just wanted my husband but he was in another place.
I realized how much I need him and how much I miss his hugs and laying on his chest at night and watching Mad About You together. I hope this training goes by fast because having him home only on the weekends is not enough for me.
I know we are strong enough to do this, just doesn't mean I want to!! We may fight and bicker and get on each other nerves but he is my one and only, he is the one who can calm me and makes me feel better with just a few words.
So for the next few weeks I am going to be counting down till Friday...

We are having a...

A baby GIRL!!!
We are so excited to say the least! My official due date is December 19,2011 however I am going to be having another C-section so she will be born a week before. I am beyond blessed. I have my son and now my daughter, I also wanted to have a boy first so he could watch out for his little sister. Elijah is doing better with the whole baby in mommy belly, we went to the best store the other day ( Target) and we were looking at baby stuff and he was going crazy picking things up saying " I buy for baby". He was so funny.
When the lady said Girl, my husband first thing to say was " Great that is two pedicures" I just died laughing! I on cloud nine right now because my life is so full filling and I am so loved and it over whelms me that God has given me so many blessing in my life.
We have a narrowed the names down to Piper and Olivia. I of course love Piper and my love wants Olivia! I have a feeling Piper is going to win though (:
December cant come fast enough! I am ready to hold her and look into her eyes like I did four years ago when God gave me my first blessing.

Tuesday July 19,2011

I really have not blogged much about our pregnancy and I am slacker for that! Truth is I have been so tired and sick I just really haven't had much energy til now.
The first weeks were rough morning sickness over took me and then around 7 weeks my levels stopped going up so they put me on Pomuterum (sp) and that just made feel worse, unfortunately I couldn't keep anything down and it took all my energy. I would go to work and then come home and pretty much crash! Well at 14 weeks I started weekly shots and things have been MUCH better!! I am keeping food down but still get sick at the most randoms times of the day and I am slowly getting my energy back. Also I have not gained any weight!! Which really suprised me because I all I want is milk and cookies! I am now 18 weeks along and my belly is growing and I actually look pregnant not just FAT!!! YAY!! I will post pictures soon I just have to wait since I decided to break my camera! I am going to blame it on pregnancy clumsiness, my husband doesn't see it that way though lol!!
We am finding out on Tuesday at 1:30 p.m what we are having!! I am so excited!! I would love to have a little girl because my body is already taking a toll with this baby and I would be done however having another little boy in the house would be just amazing! I love my son he is a funny little boy and completely like his father! I am surrounded by super hero's and race cars. So I wouldnt mind having a little pink house!
We finely have some names picked out but I am still thinking so I will let you know soon!!
I hope you have a blessed Sunday!!!

Happy Birthday Elijah~

My son is now 4 years old!! Where does the time go? He is a typical 4 year old to say the least. He is into super hero's, asking why, picking his own clothes out and saying NO! He makes my life so interesting and fun! Not a day goes by when I thank God for giving me this crazy non-stopping talker little boy that has an imagination bigger then the world!

For his birthday we did his favorite super hero IRON MAN!! He loves Iron man, when he gets into one of his silly moods we have to call him Iron man before he will answer whatever I have asked him!
We went swimming and then came back to my house for Hot dogs and cake. Bestie took the pictures with her niffy camera!




He was so excited to see the banner up! All he coulds say was " My birthday is coming"



The Iron Man Cake!! A very yummy cake till the dog decided to finish it off in the middle of the night!!!!



Presents!!!



Iron Man Movie!





Iron Man Toys!!!


Blowing out the candles!!! Make a wish!




Needless to say he had a great birthday party! Here are some of my favorite pictures of my 4 year old!!








Happy Birthday to my Big Boy!!! I love you