Well the past week has been a roller coaster for me to say the least! I have dealt with every emotion this week and I am exhausted.
Lets see where to begin. Oh our bank is a pain in the ass and charging us fees that we shouldn't be charged and they wont do anything about it, so we need to find a new bank so my week started out with a bang! Angry and Annoyed not the two best emotions together! Then my boss got on to me for talking to much blah blah blah, I am 26 years old and I do my job good and so what if I am talking!! My class room is clean and my kids are not killing each other so I think I doing pretty damn good! So I was embarrassed because I felt like a 5 years being scowled by my mother for talking in church. Oh and this is the same day all the bank crap happened!So in one day it was anger, annoyed and embarrassed in less then 2 hours. So after my boss got on to me I went up stairs to eat my lunch ( which by the way was horrible) I prayed for the day to get better and it did after I saw Molly and Kristy. We vented to each other and decided to go to the gym right after work and just try and have a good rest of the day.
Well that could have happened except for the fact that when I was feeding my kiddos snack I noticed a guy walked in, and of course that is nothing new, I work at a daycare so I just figured it was one of the dads. It was a dad but not the dad I wanted to see. It was my ex boyfriend!!!! I thought I was going to cry,throw up and die right there in the middle of snack time! I was in shock, he was staring at me and I couldn't breath, I just stood there staring back. This guy broke my heart 10 years ago and there he was just standing there starting at me. Finely he left and I caught my breath and realized that I was still at work, so I went to the bathroom and calmed down and went on with my day. Went to the gym with the girls and had a good time!
While this whole day is going on I am also dealing with the emotions of happiness because I thought I was pregnant but sadly when I got home I took the test and it was negative. I really thought I was because I had a few signs but I guess that is just my mind and body playing tricks on me. I usually don't cry when it comes out negative ( which is all the time) but this time I did because I really thought I was. Thomas was so sweet to me he just held me and let me cry. I was so heartbroken, I want anther baby so bad and it just not happening for us and I don't understand why...
Well the rest of the week went OK until Thursday I get a text from my sister in law wanting to meet for dinner, and for those who don't know I am not speaking to her because I don't like who she has become. anyways I forward the text to bestie and she tells me that I should go but I had already told sister in law that I cant that I am going to the gym. I mean I could have but I really didn't want to see her, and of course my phone dies so I don't know what either of them are saying until i get home from the gym that night at 7:30 pm. So I call my bestie and she tells me that I should go to see the kids and that maybe this is a start of forgiveness, so I listen to her and tell her that we can meet on Friday for dinner. Well lets just say it was great seeing the kids! I just cant stand how she has changed and what she is doing to her children or how she is treating my best friend!! GRRR I don't want to get into it right now because I am still annoyed with the whole thing!
I will say that today is a better day! Went to lunch with my hubby and then went and bought my son some winter clothes and then spent the rest of the day with my bestie and the family, tomorrow we are going to church and I am super excited because I need a good sermon right now!!!
