I can feel God's works!!I have so much faith and hope in me right now I just don't know what to do with my self.
I have always tried to be a faithful follower of Christ and like everyone, I have slipped up and just went to my deep " no one cares mode" but I have been working so hard at trying to be more positive and faithful. I have been reminding my self that even though we have been struggling for the last three years it has only been three minutes for God.
I am seeing so much change going on and I love it!
I see my husband happier, with God on my husband side he has lost weight and is leading him in the right direction that is best for him and our family. My husband is an amazing man and I couldn't ask for a better partner in life and father to our son. He works hard for us and still has time to cuddle with us on the couch. I see God shine through him even when he doesn't see it. My family is on our knees praying for what God has in store of us in the next few months, we are waiting with an open heart. I cant really say anything yet until we know more so please pray for our family!
I see joy in my best friend heart and it been such a long time for her. She deserve all the joy that God can give her and I am so happy she has found a love and I cant wait for the day she can yell from the roof top!
God is truly at work and my heart is filled with so much happiness.
I had been so angry for so long because we have struggled and I was jealous of people because I didn't have the newest whatever and the greed and envy I had was eating away at me and I HATED the person I was becoming and the thoughts I was having. Then one day I was reading my bible,
Psalm 37:7
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.
I then remember when I was 16 years old I gave my life to Christ and that my life was no longer mine and that he was in control and that I need to be patient. God has always taken care of my family and I.
I sat there thinking of all the things that could have happened but didn't because God has blessed people to love us,a roof over our head, food and jobs . If you think about it that is what is important. Not how much money you have or the car you drive, its about being held by your husband or getting kissed by your son and hearing him say " Mommy I love you"! If I didn't have God in my life I wouldn't have any of those wonderful small moments. How can you not believe in God when you have blessing like that in you life? If I wasn't saved and didn't have God in my life I truly believe that my life would be meaningless and lonely. But when I look in my sons eyes I see Gods work at hand.
Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments and I get anxious and stressed out, I just go back to that verse and take a deep breath and remind my self that God is in control and that his plan is so much bigger then what I could come up with and I love what I see so far...
