Lucky and Coolwater...

what does summer mean to you? To me it means fireflies,fireworks,snow cones, and summer love...

My hubby and I started dating when I was 17 and let me tell you I fell hard for him. He just had this thing about him that I still cant figure out what it is.
Today I was driving around town with the windows down letting the summer air blow threw my hair and it just took me back, I swear I could smell Lucky cologne and Coolwater perfume mixed in with the warm wind. Oh I just love those two smells together because it is us, we both have been wearing them for years and whenever I put it on I am 17 all over again. He has worn other colognes and I perfumes but nothing goes better together like those two smells.
When I smell them, It takes me back to our first kiss in his car, our first date at chilies, and many other firsts that summer. He still makes me feel like I did when I was that young girl standing in the mix of perfume and cologne outside my friends house hoping for a kiss. I still get weak in the knees when he kisses me or get butterflies in my stomach when he reaches for my hand. He is my summer love till this day and I am so blessed to have him as my husband.
Who would have thought that Lucky and Coolwater would have work so well together...

A good Night...

Tonight I went over to moms for a movie and I love how me and my mom are now, it took 4 years of us not talking but we have learned how to handle each other because she and I are so much a like. I use to hate when people would say that I looked like her but now I take it as a compliment. My mother is controlling out spoken stubborn and of course she is ALWAYS RIGHTbut she stands up for what she believes and I am glad she is my mother. Took me 25 years to come to this but hey better late then never!!
Anyways we watched Dear John and it was pretty good, not as good as the book but that's how it always is anyways!


It was great just spending sometime with her and my sister who by the way is just right down crazy. She is going to be 13 in July and she is just turning into a beautiful young lady who loves to talk back and roll her eyes LOL!! But she is getting really good on the flute she can even play Lady Gaga telephone on it.
I think we are going to really try and to to the pool tomorrow evening with Amanda and the kiddos and I am going to bring her with us, trying to spend more time with her.
Well I really need to go to bed since it is almost 2:00 am.
So goodnight world!

My God...

As I am getting older I am learning that not everyone believes in God as I do and I guess it was me being blinded or naive but it just something that I thought everyone was saved. But now I am so sad to see how many people don't have Jesus as their savior, people I look up to or care about.
I wouldn't know what to do with out God in my life. He has held me up when all I want to do is just lay down and quit. I have had the Holy spirit enter me and it has always been there since the day I asked Jesus into my heart. When I was 16 I was going down a downward spiral of darkness and I was so unhappy and doing stupid things and hurting my self and my family. I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel it was just getting darker and darker, then one day I decided that I was done and I went to church and my soul cried out to God and it was filled with such love and peace and I love having that in my life.
Now life is not as easy as it was at 16 and there have been times I have felt that falling sensation that I got before but I feel his hand grab mine before I can fall back in to the tunnel.
God is amazing in all he does and what he will do. I love sitting outside and just closing my eyes and let my self be surround by all of his wonderful gifts. When I breath in the fresh air my soul is awaken and I know that, that is Gods wonderful works, not some big bang, and when I look at my son I just fill up with such joy because God gave him to me! He trusted me enough to raise his child in the way he would want him to be raise believe in his love and his grace.
If your are not living for Jesus and for our future we have in Heaven then what are you living for? Your self? How sad that must be for you, because you will be alone in a dark tunnel with no light at the end only through Jesus will you find the light...

Thank you...

I have been trying to blog for about, oh all day now, and I just can't get out what I am trying to say! I am so worried that what I really want to say is going to hurt feeling and then part of me says I really don't give a damn because you don't seem to care! I'm sick and tired of feeling like I am always wrong when I know that I am right. You are so stuck on your self now you don't even know that you are about to lose some friends. It's not like it would matter to you. I mean you have a whole new life and your living your cookie cutter life and we just mess it up by bringing dirt in to your precious house! You are not perfect and you need to come off your high horse. You need to figure out who you are and stop forming to everyone else. You have shut us out of your life and I feel like you think you are better then I am. Well you're not. I know who I am, and I am proud of it. I am strong in my faith and my relationship with God. I can see certain things and not worry that it will damage my faith. I am done with trying to figure you out and trying to withhold myself so I don't hurt your feelings but no more! But I do want to thank you for one thing... Jealousy is a horrible thing to have and I was jealous of you. I am not now. You also showed me what really matters and I see that I am more blessed then I ever knew. I am loved by an amazing man and I love him back and I have a very happy child. My house my not always be clean or we may fight but I know at night when I am laying in my husband's arms everything is right in the world. Thank you for teaching me that. I pray that you figure that out sooner rather then later...