Doubt ...

I have been full of doubt for the past few weeks and I am really not sure why.
I question everything in my head when someone says something. However it has been so much worse when it has come to my husband. I doubt everything he is saying to me. I just sit there and wander what he is telling me is true.
The thing is I have always had doubts about things, it like everyone else has their shadow’s to follow them but I have doubt. It always there, just whispering things to me. “He really doesn’t love you, who would love someone like you" I am getting that one a lot and it is eating away at me.
I don’t know what to do? I am getting to the point that I do not believe a word from my husband and it is causing fights and hurt feelings. I have always wondered why he was with me. I am short and overweight. I just don’t know what he sees in me. I feel people are looking at us and asking why is he with her.
I know this is not normal. I should be happy he loves me and that he is with me but it honestly hard to be, because doubt is there standing there reminding me how I look or how I am. I was hoping when I got married and had kids that I would have more confidantes but I don’t. I feel like I am back in school and I hear the kids calling me names and reminding me that I am short and fat...
I just don’t know what to do anymore; I do know that I can’t keep this up because I am pushing a wonderful man away and I so very much love him...

So if you could please pray for me that God shows me that doubt is just the devils way of controlling me...

Lost....

Don't you hate when you lose something and you have no idea when or where you lost the item?
That is what happen to me yesterday. I have a thumb ring that I have been wearing on my thumb for 7 years now and I never take it off! Well I was driving to dinner and I went to go mess with it like I always do, when I noticed that it was GONE!! I freaked!!! I looked on my self, floor, Elijah car set and I couldn't find. I have no idea where it went.
Now I know that some are thinking just go get a a new thumb ring, well that the problem the ring was my first wedding ring from Thomas. We got married at 19 and we had no money so we both had simple silver bands. When he " upgraded" our rings a few months later I put the silver band on my thumb.
I kept it on to remind me every day how far we have came in our life together...
I will keep looking and praying it will show up somewhere. I know I don't need the ring but I like having the reminder how blessed and loved I am by my husband...