Hurt....

OK so me and my brother in law really don't get along and we have had our fights well the last one was because we had to buy a car and he felt that we should have saved up and just fixed the car we had but anyways He deleted me from Facebook because my status updated upset him which really hurt my feeling because I didnt think I had done anything so bad to be deleted from his facebook so my husband did not add him because he was upset with him about other things and because he deleted me... well that made me feel good that my husband was standing up for me.. well all of that changed! I was on my husband facebook and he and his brothers are friends again so I am the only one who is not on my brother in laws facebook I am out in the cold and I know some of are think it just facebook but its the whole fact of the matter. I feel so left out now and I am so hurt that my husband did that to me knowing that it has hurt my feeling. I guess I don't count. I thought you should have one person to stand up for you no matter what and i thought that was my husband well i was wrong there! It kills me that he doesn't stand up for me because i left my family for him 5 years ago and i did not speak to my family for 3 years!! I stood up for him and I left to show them that he is the most important person in my life and I would do it again if need be. I was taught once you get married then it is just you and your spouse right you leave your mother and father and become your own family! I am just so hurt I don't think husband would ever do that for me, I guess I just love him more then he loves me... I want my husband and his brother to have a realtionship but I want to be important enough that he would be willing to leave his family for me....

update

well i have not been on in forever and a day. I have had no Internet and so there you go. We just moved back to Yukon and I am so happy about this change in my life!!! we are about to go to the Dr for Elijah speech so i am a little nervous about this all i can think is that i am a horrible mother and i did not teach my son how to speak. well i have more to say but i need to get ready!