So today I added a new friend to face book that I had been trying to find for a while now. So she accepted me and so I went and look at her pictures because her profile picture was a wedding picture, I wanted see more. She really doesn't have very many up just 9 and all profile pictures, there a few more wedding pictures and then there is 3 pictures of a little baby boy and it turns out that she had a baby. There was a note on one of them from her and it had said that her baby was in heaven now and how she loved and missed him, from my understanding he had cancer. I just broke down in tears because he is just so little. So I go on to her page to write on her wall and I am scrolling down and on March 23, 2010 she posted that it was her sons 3rd birthday. My heart just broke, I am sitting here tears just flowing away because I wouldn't even know what to do if I lost Elijah, he turns three in July.
He was so young and little and on top of it sick. How do you go on? 2 years with my son is would not be enough for me heck 18 years wouldn't be enough! Not to be able to hear his laugh or have has little hand in mine or to give fishy kisses to him, I just don't know how I would even be able to get out of bed! That crazy little boy that drives me insane some days is my whole world! It begins and ends with him. Sometime I am scared that I love him to much if that make any sense.
I really don't know why I am writing this blog, it just broke my heart and I needed to write about it I guess.
Going to go kiss my sleeping son now...
How sad must it be for you. I hug you, even if I'm a little late.
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