Spring Break!

Well I am sooo tired! I couldn't fall asleep till 2:00 am and was up a lot earlier then i wanted to! So I am dragging my feet today on the things I need to do, like cleaning, going to the store and put my laundry up! I just want to lay around today but the house is driving me crazy!!!
Today is the first day of Spring Break and well that really doesn't affected me since Elijah is not in school yet but I always loved Spring Break when I was a kid, it always made me feel refreshed when I went back to school. So I am thinking I am going to do Spring Break Cleaning! The house is not cleaned like I like it and my clothes need to be switched out! Maybe rearrange the furniture I don't know yet. Thinking Wednesday is going to be cleaning day since Thomas works his ot job that day so he will be out of the house at 3:00 pm.
Also going to start walking in the morning I think I need that alone time so I can get in the right mind set for the day.
Well I guess it is time for me to start the day!!! I hope everyone has a good day!!

Nothing Much....

Well I will have to say that I am NOT happy that my husbands vacation is over, He goes back to work tonight and it just plain sucks!!! For the past two weeks I got to sleep with him and I am going to miss that! We didnt do much the past two weeks but for the most part it was a really good vacation. We spent most of it out of town and our friends house, it was great just to relax and hang out. Tonight is going to be hard for me to sleep because I got use to him back in bed with me. I love laying in his arms at night and have pillow talk, we have some of out best talks late at night in whispers because we dont wake anyone up.
Last night my mom took the baby for the night and I had a much needed girls night with some amazing women in my life! We went and saw Alice in Wonderland and let me just say I LOVED it!!! I will so go see it again! Then came home and just relaxed with my hubby. Today is time change so all of are really tired so today is a lazy day and that is just fine with me!!!

Words...

Today I learned a good lesson that I needed to learn. Words do really hurtfeelings even men's, I always thought men were always suppose to be tough and strong and really didn't have feelings I know that sounds crazy but it how I always felt. Today I over stepped the lined and really hurt my husband with words out of anger. I wish I could take back what I said but I cant and I really hate my self right now for hurting him the way I did, I am the one person that he should trust not to hurt him. I need to learn how to walk away and come back when I am not so mad.
The one thing I really hate about a fight, it is like everything nice you ever said to the person is erased and it takes everything to get back to where you were at. I am feeling stupid, immature and childish.
I am praying that my husband can truly forgive me for my hurtful words...

Whole Hearted....

Last night I was talking to my best friend and she said something to me that I have not heard in a really long time and you really don't hear it anymore because of how people are these days. We were talking about love and past relationships and our first crush stuff like that and we have had this talk more then once but she said to me " when I love I give my whole heart away".
Aren't we suppose to give our whole heart away when we love someone? I mean your going to trust this person with you life but not your heart? I too have given my whole heart to someone before my husband and yes I got hurt but It was a risk that I took when I was young and stupid and didn't know what I was doing and when I got it back it was bruised and cut but still in on piece. I know that some people wouldn't take that risk again, they would hold a piece back for safe keeping but I didn't when fell in love with my husband, I just handed over my heart like nothing ever happened and yeah there are scars on my heart but my husbands love has slowly erased them for me. That is what a true love does for you, they will take the bad past you had and give you bright future. Don't hold back your heart because your not giving all you have to them and that is not fair to them, they didn't hurt you and your treating them like they did.
Let them erase the scars for you...

Happy Birthday

Yesterday was my wonderful husband birthday and I feel horrible because he ended up taking care of me because I was sick with the a stomach bug. I just cried because it was his day and here I am sick and he is taking care of me. He always has crappy birthday's and this year I was trying really hard that he had a great birthday and a great vacation as well. Last year on his vacation Elijah and I were both really sick. Well what do you know I'm get sick again! We had a game night on Saturday with some of our friends and so we gave him his big birthday gifts which was a gun that he has been dying for and our best friend got him the series The Shield. So gift wise he made out pretty good! but I still feel pretty bad that I am sick. I just wish that he could have a great birthday with out anything crazy happening.

So Happy Birthday my wonderful love! Thank you for taking care of me and our crazy son. I love you so much and praying next year NO ONE WILL BE SICK!!!
I love you!!!

Elijah...

Elijah is my 2 year old son and I am blessed to get to stay home with him and I love every minute of it, OK that is a lie I love when he listens to me and he is not throwing fits! But none the less I love being a stay at home mom. Elijah is a hand full to say the least, he is so stubborn and I really have no idea where he gets that from (: Oh and does he have a temper ( he gets that from his dad)but he is also so smart and funny and he can be such a loving child. Melts my heart when he comes up to me and does his fish face for kisses!
Anyways a lot of people know that Elijah is not a big talker we can figure out what he wants pretty much but well today was a different story. I am sitting on the couch reading and he is watching WOW WOW WUBBZY for like the 100Th time today, he comes up to me and he is doing his jargon talk he does and he is just going and I have no idea what he is talking about so I ask him again what he needed so again he goes off with his Elijah talk and so I ask again, So I guess Elijah did not like that he actually THREW HIS HEAD BACK AND RAISED HIS ARMS UP AND SIGHED AND ROLLED HIS EYES!!! I thought I was talking to my niece Amber for a second. I didn't know what to do so I asked him one more time what he need HE DID IT AGAIN!!! Then just walked off and guess what he was talking crap to me as he was walking off!! Oh i died laughing It was the funniest thing ever! I was thinking he is two and he is already giving me major attitude!!!
Well I figured out what he wanted which was to paint but he didn't get to since he decided to rip up a bunch of paper!
Oh the joys of motherhood!!!!

Drama!!

So for some reason drama finds me and my family always has and probably always will but I am so sick of it! Are we in middle school? My husband is hard working and stays to himself for the most part and some how he ends up in the middle of someone else problems! and believe me he does not want to be there! Which that just piss me off! Why should he get in trouble for something he had nothing to do with!! I am just so sick of it!!!