Saturday, April 16, 2011

Take over...

So far 2011 has been a great year and there has been so many blessings in my life this year. I know a lot of changes are about to happen and I know that God has so much planned for my family . We thought that we were going to be going one way, but God had something else in mind for us, we are just not sure what he has in store for us. I am ready to see what he has been planning for us.
The past week has really opened my eyes that I am not in control of my life, but God is. We may have our whole life planned out for us, then God comes along and shows us a better more fulfilling life.
We just have to learn how to truly give up our own wants and step out on faith and know that God will provide us with a life that we could never give our selves.
I really don't handle change very well and I see God changing my life right before my eyes and I have my moments of weakness and question what God is trying to teach me. I know if I would just step back and allow Him to take control then I would be amazed with what he could do for my family.
I am going to try and give up my concerns and let God take over, allowing him to give my family the best life possible.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Copy Cat...

I am beyond annoyed right now! So I am going to vent for a minute.
I have been blogging for almost 2 years and this is my way to get whatever I am feeling out and I love my feedback. Blogging is part of my life and it is very important to me.
Well about a month ago I was told ( well it was implied) that blogging is just a diary and that I need to be careful what I say in it or I will have to pay the consequence for what I right, and I did after I wrote a blog that person deleted me from facebook. I was pissed and pretty much done with this person because she thinks she the end all be all ( and she is not).
Well guess who is now blogging??? Yep you guessed it! She has now started her own blog!! After what she said to me and my fellow blogger's. I am so put out with this women! I just don't understand people sometimes! But I will say I hate when people say things and then turn around and do what they just put down... UGH

OK I am done venting! Thank You for listening ( or reading)!!

I hope you all have a blessed Sunday!!!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

The Scents of My Wonderful life...

So my life is in twinned with scents and it always has been. I am funny about scents I only burn certain smells at certain time of the years and I never mix to scents. It drives my bestie crazy! The first time she realized this was when we were shopping for candles and she had me smell pumpkin and I told her I couldn't burn that scent yet because it was the summer time. You should have seen her face!
Scents are the keepers of my memories. I have a memory locked away but as soon I smell something, the memory is unlocked and I am taken back.


Like today was a gorgeous day and you could just smell spring in the air. I walked outside and the wind was blowing and I could smell the flowers that just started to bloom somewhere and I was two years back thinking about how I was taking Elijah for walks at the duck pond early in the morning and how much I loved spending that time with him.

I have scents for everyone in my life and for the things that I have happened in my life, some great things and some not so great.

I cant smell the cologne Micheal Jordan because it makes me think of my childhood friends father that past. I was at walmart one day and this gentlemen walked by wearing that cologne and time stood still for me. I was 13 years old all over again and I was with my friends watching the movie Grease and Tom came running in singing along with the movie and dancing around. One of the best memories I have of Tom, when I was still young and things were so simple.
Another scent that takes me back to my youth is fresh cut grass. When I smell that in the air, I am on the softball field playing the game. I loved it!! The late night games, the sunflowers seeds, the chants we would yell. I can hear the laughing and the cheering. I had some of my best times out on the field.

I love when I walk into a salon and I smell the hair, shampoo and the chemicals for the coloring, it takes me back to me and bestie going and getting our hair done, I remember the first time I had bestie get her eyebrows and lip waxed!! OH lord I thought she was going to kill me!! Still makes me laugh!
The smell of popcorn and chocolate makes me think of all the endless talks we have had laying around watching sappy movies and playing the WII...

When I smell the scent of tuna it takes me back to the last time I got to see Mom ( my bestie mother)... She was an incredible women. The smell of books takes me to back when I fist met Mom and DR. They have been such a blessing in my life..

When I smell wet dirt it makes me think of my little sister playing in the sprinkler when she was 4 years old. She is now 13 and she is turning into such a young lady.

One of my favorite scents is Cinnamon, true cinnamon, not apple cinnamon. True cinnamon makes me think of my mother. I loved coming home in the winter because she would always be burning that scent and I loved walking in the door and feeling the heat hit me wrapping me in the scent of cinnamon. Another scent that makes me think of my mom is baby powder. When I was younger my mom would put baby powder on after her showers and when she would leave the bathroom, I would run into the bathroom and close the door trying to keep the scent of the hot water mixed with her shampoo and baby powder in and I would just stay in there till I could no longer smell it. I don't know if she ever knew if I did that, but I always loved how she smelled.

The smell of Copenhagen makes me think of my father. When I smell that scent it takes me back to when my dad was teaching me how to play Jim-rummy. Also the smell of canned Chicken and dumplings, oh my goodness the worst thing ever!! We still crack up about that!!!
The smell of Lime Beer takes me back to last summer when my brother came over and we talked on my front porch till 4 am! We hadn't talk that way in a really long time and I am so glad to have my brother back in my life.
The smells after a thunderstorm takes me back to the summer I got baptised at church camp. One of the best days of my life!

The scent of Cool-water perfume and Lucky cologne takes me back to the summer of 2002 in front of Jenny Reavis house in a red Pontiac where I received my first kiss from my future husband. Till this day when I smell those scents I am 17 years old all over again. Not knowing what God had in store for us.
The smell of Lysol takes me back to the day I found out I was pregnant with Elijah, and how over joyed I was to hear those words " Your pregnant"...


I love how scents are in my life because everyday is like a walk down memory lane for me and I love taking the time to stop and smell the roses and think about all the wonderful things I have in my life...

Sunday, March 27, 2011

80 questions of randomness ...

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
I don't know, guess we will see

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Duran

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Sure was!

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Thomas around 12:00

7. What are you excited for?
Going to six flags in April!

8. What were you doing yesterday?
laundry and cleaning

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Elijah

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Starbucks drink

11. Have a best friend?
Yes

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
No

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
mmmm I am not saying...

15. What time is it right this second?
5:41 pm

16. What do you want right now?
not real sure

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Amanda at church

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
taken

19. When was the last time you cried?
Friday

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yes

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
sometimes

22. How fast does your mind change?
never, wait all the time!

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
I absolutely do.

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Yes

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Because they are selfish and stupid!

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
If Thomas will get a letter from Yukon.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Thomas vacation , six flags and getting my tonsils out!

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yep

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Just now

30. When is your next road trip?
April

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
yes

32. How's your heart?
Perfect

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
many times

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
yes

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Eating Pizza and watching Nick open his gifts


37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yep.

38. Who do you not get along with?
My in laws

39. what does you 3rd recent text say?
thank you for putting up with me I love you

40. What are you wearing right now?
Jeans and a shirt

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Amazing!!!

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Last month

43. What're your fave boys and girls name right now?
I don't know

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
good, just still sleepy!

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
I am with the two people who I would want to text me so I am good.

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
all the time

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
writing in my journal

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
HMD

49. Who's the first M in your contacts?
Molly

50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Yesterday when Thomas thought he broke his toe

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Of course!!

52. Last awkward moment?
not real sure

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
No

54. Do you have good vision?
yep

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Not intentionally.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

57. Are you Irish?
No clue

58. Do you use chap stick?
Yes

59. Do you have any scars?
Yes

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
yes

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
I am married to him

62. Name the last person to text you?
Thomas

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
No

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
Yep

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yes

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
depends if Thomas is working

67. Whats the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Get my hair and nails done!

68. What's one huge pet peeve?
Slow driver!

69. Last one to put their arms around you in the last 5 days?
Thomas

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Sometimes.

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes

72. Song You're thinking of right now?
Come home

73. Want someone back in your life?
yes

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
Today was a great day but tomorrow I took off and Thomas is off so I am pretty happy about that!!

75. What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?
Grey

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Yes

77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Good Yes!!

78.Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Well I am married and that is pretty easy to understand!

79.Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I am very happy until you make me mad!

80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
He already is (:

Saturday, March 19, 2011

More then a number...

For the past few years, well OK since I was 16 years old I have been trying to figure out who I am or more so who I want to be..
I feel like I am getting closer to know the answer to that but then I start to question my self or listen to other peoples comments that hurt and dwell on them for days. Then I am back to right where I started!
I thought I was gaining my confidant's back, but to be honest with you I am not sure if I was ever getting any. Since started at CNW I have been so worried about what people think about me my confidence level is below ZERO!
I was called fat at least 4 times this month at work and well it really is hard to feel good about your self when that is all you seem to hear,I am tired of my weight defining who I am, because I am more then a number on a stupid white square that can either make you have a great day or make you want to hide under big sweaters for OH EVER! It is hard to walk away with you chin held high or laugh it off when something hurts so much like that 3 letter word.
Why does it hurt to be called fat? I wish I knew the answer to that question, along with why is OK that she eats a whole tub of ice cream and no one even looks at her but I pick up a cookie and I feel like the whole room is thinking " she shouldn't be eating that"! WHY???
Why do I worry about it so much because like I said I am more then a stupid number! I am heavy yes but there is so much more to me then that!!
I have great eyes, I am an amazing wife and mother, I am a trustworthy friend, I will love you with all my heart, I love to sing and and make people laugh, I am a daughter, a sister, animal lover, I love to read and go to plays and concerts. I love warm summer nights, I love to watch movies and play games with my family and friends. I am more then a number...
In Gods eyes I am perfect but in mine I need work, why cant I see what he see in me? Why cant I see what my amazing husband see in me? I wish I could see what my friends see but when I look in the mirror I see that 3 letter word.
The reason why is because I have allowed all of the years of being made fun or all the looks I have received make an impact in the way I see my self. Instead of listening to the people who matter and who love me, I have listen to the strangers whispers and the people from my past. I am no longer going to allow my weight to define who I am. My weight does not make me who I am, it is all the wonderful things I have to offer people, That is what make me ME!!!
Does this mean I am going to start eat whatever? No I am going to keep up with working out and watching what I eat. All I need to to be is healthy and that is what matters. Not what that stupid white square says!!!!


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my life

My life in pictures...

- A picture of yourself with ten facts
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1. I am 5ft
2. Burnett hair
3. Hazel eyes
4. I have curves
5. Been married for almost 7 years
6. Mexican is my Favorite food
7. I work at childrens new world
8. I was saved when I was 12
9. Cant live with out butter!
10. My son is the love of my life

- A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
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MY AMAZING HUBBY!!!

A picture of the cast from your favorite show
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CASTLE
- A picture of your night
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HANGING WITH MY BESTIE!

- A picture of your favorite memory
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FIRST NIGHT IN VEGAS!!! AMY WAS THE BEST!!

A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
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BECAUSE SHE GET TO MAKE OUT WITH JAKE GYLLENHAA!!

- A picture of your most treasured item
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MY BOYS!!

A picture that makes you laugh
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FIRST TIME BOWLING!

A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
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MY BESTIE!



A picture of something you hate

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CLOWNS!!!

A picture of something you love
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YEP!!!
A picture of your favorite band or artist

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LADY A!

A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

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MY SON!

A picture of something you want to do before you die

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SWIM WITH ONE OF THESE GUYS!

A picture of someone who inspires you

MY MOTHER I DONT HAVE A PICTURE OF HER...

A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

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READING GODS WORD!!

A picture of your biggest insecurity
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MY WEIGHT


A picture

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A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

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GREECE

A picture of something you wish you could change

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A picture of something you wish you were better at

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A picture of your favorite book

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TWILIGHT!

A picture of your day

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A picture of something that means a lot to you
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A picture of something you're afraid of
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SPIDERS!!

A picture that can always make you smile

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July 9,2007 my little love came into my life!


A picture of someone you miss
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Dan- wish we could see him more!

Well that is my life in pictures!!!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Be happy..

So this week was a very trying week for me to say the least. Not a bad week just emotional and tiring.
I found out that two wonderful ladies I work with are pregnant. When they first told me I cried but then I just started thinking about how I would feel if I told someone such amazing news like that and they cried, I would feel like they were being selfish in a way.
So I prayed and I decided that I am going to be happy for them and you know what I am. I am so excited to see them enter this amazing part life. One women this is her second child and the other it is her first. I just get giddy thinking about seeing their bellies grow and hear what they are going to name them. I know my time will come and they will be just as happy for me as I am for them.
I realized that if I choose to be happy and be positive then I really am and my life is filled with more laughter and love. I have been counting my blessing everyday and my heart and soul is filled with joy. I find my self smiling for no reason now and I love it!

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So choose to smile more and be happy you will see a big change in your life...