Heaven... A child's view of it...

I love my niece Amberlynn, she is full of life and questions and I love how she looks at the world.
We were driving around today and she was just talking and talking like she usually does and half of the time we have no idea what she is talking about, so we just listen and say yeah and ah uh in the right places. So anyways today Amber says " I bet daddy is having fun in heaven" and Amanda replies " yeah I bet he is", so Amber just starts telling us how fun heaven is going to be because her bubba said that there are lollipops in heaven and there are swimming pools and they will get to go swimming everyday, well not everyday just during the summer.
I just wanted to cry because here is this 6 year old that has more faith in our God and in heaven then some adults. I love how children look at things, how the simplest things make them happy! Amanda took them outside a few nights ago in their PJ's and let them catch fireflies! How wonderful is that and she said that they were so happy!
So if heaven is anything like Amber says,well then I cant wait to get there and eat Lollipops and swim and maybe even catch some fireflies...

Housework...

OK I don't know what my deal is but I have been slacking in my house work! So Today after Thomas goes to work at Three, I am going to get my butt in gear and get this house back in working order! I don't know why I have been so lazy about it! I have been doing really good about keeping up with it. I am going to blame it on the summer! Yep that is it, It is the summer and I would rather be outside or out with friends then inside cleaning!



But I feel less stressed when the house is clean so I will stop whining and get it done, it wont take that long anyways...

I hope everyone is have a great day!

My weeekend....

So this weekend was a really good on,which I really needed since last week sucked since I only got one day to spend with my love. So starting on Friday my mother and sister and I went to do some summer shopping for them. Let me just say my sister is so hard to shop with, she is very much at that age where she is trying to figure out who she is wanting to be, so that is why my mom brings me because I am the only one who can get her to try things on and wont kill her ( unlike my mom LOL). What is funny I was nothing like her, I was easy to shop with well to a point, my problem was more the fact that I couldn't find things that fit right, I am very short and I am heavy so you know it is so easy to find clothes!! Anyways she got some really cute things including a Jumper!! I know are we back in the eighties??? Crazy thing is she look super cute in it!!


Then I found some awesome jeans at a store that I didnt think I would be able to fit in, even there their plus size, but OMG they fit AWESOME!! I am going to go get some before my trip to Vegas in august, and they have some other cute stuff I want to try on to see how they fit.
Then we went to dinner over at Olive Garden and called it a night, mom was tired and her back was killing and my sister was on her last nerve!!!
Then on Saturday we had a very lazy day. Which was pure bliss! Later that night we went to TGIF with the bestie for dinner and then we hit the mall for a bit.



The bestie wasn't feel to good and my son was being a major brat!!! You say terrible 2 pshh whatever it terrible 3's!!!! So we decided that is was time to go home.
We got home and put him to bed and the hubby went up to the store so we could have some drinks and watch From Paris with Love, which by the way it was a great movie!!



Yesterday was also another good day. We were having the bestie and the kiddos over so we mowed and cleaned up the back yard. We decided that we should get a pool for them well at first we were thinking a slip and slide but our backyard has to many twigs so we didn't think that would be the best idea!!
So we went to the store and got food and the pool and then we got some lawn chairs which just made me as happy as could be! Been wanting them for a while now! We only got two but we are going to go back and get a couple more and they have a small table to go with them. So last night after everyone left we sat outside in our new chairs and just chit chat while Elijah played in his sand box. Then we realized that he was getting all bit up, so we came in and threw his little butt in the shower. Then 9:00 p.m came around and it was bed time for him.
We rented Shutter Island and wow that was a great movie not what I thought at all but it was really really good, so if you get a chance you should rent it!




And well that was my great weekend! Right now I am sitting in my living room listening to the thunder rumble and the rain pouring down! Hubby is still sleeping and my son is freaking out LOL!! Going to be another great day!! Now going to make us some pancakes! Have a great day everyone!!!

Lucky and Coolwater...

what does summer mean to you? To me it means fireflies,fireworks,snow cones, and summer love...

My hubby and I started dating when I was 17 and let me tell you I fell hard for him. He just had this thing about him that I still cant figure out what it is.
Today I was driving around town with the windows down letting the summer air blow threw my hair and it just took me back, I swear I could smell Lucky cologne and Coolwater perfume mixed in with the warm wind. Oh I just love those two smells together because it is us, we both have been wearing them for years and whenever I put it on I am 17 all over again. He has worn other colognes and I perfumes but nothing goes better together like those two smells.
When I smell them, It takes me back to our first kiss in his car, our first date at chilies, and many other firsts that summer. He still makes me feel like I did when I was that young girl standing in the mix of perfume and cologne outside my friends house hoping for a kiss. I still get weak in the knees when he kisses me or get butterflies in my stomach when he reaches for my hand. He is my summer love till this day and I am so blessed to have him as my husband.
Who would have thought that Lucky and Coolwater would have work so well together...

A good Night...

Tonight I went over to moms for a movie and I love how me and my mom are now, it took 4 years of us not talking but we have learned how to handle each other because she and I are so much a like. I use to hate when people would say that I looked like her but now I take it as a compliment. My mother is controlling out spoken stubborn and of course she is ALWAYS RIGHTbut she stands up for what she believes and I am glad she is my mother. Took me 25 years to come to this but hey better late then never!!
Anyways we watched Dear John and it was pretty good, not as good as the book but that's how it always is anyways!


It was great just spending sometime with her and my sister who by the way is just right down crazy. She is going to be 13 in July and she is just turning into a beautiful young lady who loves to talk back and roll her eyes LOL!! But she is getting really good on the flute she can even play Lady Gaga telephone on it.
I think we are going to really try and to to the pool tomorrow evening with Amanda and the kiddos and I am going to bring her with us, trying to spend more time with her.
Well I really need to go to bed since it is almost 2:00 am.
So goodnight world!

My God...

As I am getting older I am learning that not everyone believes in God as I do and I guess it was me being blinded or naive but it just something that I thought everyone was saved. But now I am so sad to see how many people don't have Jesus as their savior, people I look up to or care about.
I wouldn't know what to do with out God in my life. He has held me up when all I want to do is just lay down and quit. I have had the Holy spirit enter me and it has always been there since the day I asked Jesus into my heart. When I was 16 I was going down a downward spiral of darkness and I was so unhappy and doing stupid things and hurting my self and my family. I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel it was just getting darker and darker, then one day I decided that I was done and I went to church and my soul cried out to God and it was filled with such love and peace and I love having that in my life.
Now life is not as easy as it was at 16 and there have been times I have felt that falling sensation that I got before but I feel his hand grab mine before I can fall back in to the tunnel.
God is amazing in all he does and what he will do. I love sitting outside and just closing my eyes and let my self be surround by all of his wonderful gifts. When I breath in the fresh air my soul is awaken and I know that, that is Gods wonderful works, not some big bang, and when I look at my son I just fill up with such joy because God gave him to me! He trusted me enough to raise his child in the way he would want him to be raise believe in his love and his grace.
If your are not living for Jesus and for our future we have in Heaven then what are you living for? Your self? How sad that must be for you, because you will be alone in a dark tunnel with no light at the end only through Jesus will you find the light...

Thank you...

I have been trying to blog for about, oh all day now, and I just can't get out what I am trying to say! I am so worried that what I really want to say is going to hurt feeling and then part of me says I really don't give a damn because you don't seem to care! I'm sick and tired of feeling like I am always wrong when I know that I am right. You are so stuck on your self now you don't even know that you are about to lose some friends. It's not like it would matter to you. I mean you have a whole new life and your living your cookie cutter life and we just mess it up by bringing dirt in to your precious house! You are not perfect and you need to come off your high horse. You need to figure out who you are and stop forming to everyone else. You have shut us out of your life and I feel like you think you are better then I am. Well you're not. I know who I am, and I am proud of it. I am strong in my faith and my relationship with God. I can see certain things and not worry that it will damage my faith. I am done with trying to figure you out and trying to withhold myself so I don't hurt your feelings but no more! But I do want to thank you for one thing... Jealousy is a horrible thing to have and I was jealous of you. I am not now. You also showed me what really matters and I see that I am more blessed then I ever knew. I am loved by an amazing man and I love him back and I have a very happy child. My house my not always be clean or we may fight but I know at night when I am laying in my husband's arms everything is right in the world. Thank you for teaching me that. I pray that you figure that out sooner rather then later...