Happy Birthday

Yesterday was my wonderful husband birthday and I feel horrible because he ended up taking care of me because I was sick with the a stomach bug. I just cried because it was his day and here I am sick and he is taking care of me. He always has crappy birthday's and this year I was trying really hard that he had a great birthday and a great vacation as well. Last year on his vacation Elijah and I were both really sick. Well what do you know I'm get sick again! We had a game night on Saturday with some of our friends and so we gave him his big birthday gifts which was a gun that he has been dying for and our best friend got him the series The Shield. So gift wise he made out pretty good! but I still feel pretty bad that I am sick. I just wish that he could have a great birthday with out anything crazy happening.

So Happy Birthday my wonderful love! Thank you for taking care of me and our crazy son. I love you so much and praying next year NO ONE WILL BE SICK!!!
I love you!!!

Elijah...

Elijah is my 2 year old son and I am blessed to get to stay home with him and I love every minute of it, OK that is a lie I love when he listens to me and he is not throwing fits! But none the less I love being a stay at home mom. Elijah is a hand full to say the least, he is so stubborn and I really have no idea where he gets that from (: Oh and does he have a temper ( he gets that from his dad)but he is also so smart and funny and he can be such a loving child. Melts my heart when he comes up to me and does his fish face for kisses!
Anyways a lot of people know that Elijah is not a big talker we can figure out what he wants pretty much but well today was a different story. I am sitting on the couch reading and he is watching WOW WOW WUBBZY for like the 100Th time today, he comes up to me and he is doing his jargon talk he does and he is just going and I have no idea what he is talking about so I ask him again what he needed so again he goes off with his Elijah talk and so I ask again, So I guess Elijah did not like that he actually THREW HIS HEAD BACK AND RAISED HIS ARMS UP AND SIGHED AND ROLLED HIS EYES!!! I thought I was talking to my niece Amber for a second. I didn't know what to do so I asked him one more time what he need HE DID IT AGAIN!!! Then just walked off and guess what he was talking crap to me as he was walking off!! Oh i died laughing It was the funniest thing ever! I was thinking he is two and he is already giving me major attitude!!!
Well I figured out what he wanted which was to paint but he didn't get to since he decided to rip up a bunch of paper!
Oh the joys of motherhood!!!!

Drama!!

So for some reason drama finds me and my family always has and probably always will but I am so sick of it! Are we in middle school? My husband is hard working and stays to himself for the most part and some how he ends up in the middle of someone else problems! and believe me he does not want to be there! Which that just piss me off! Why should he get in trouble for something he had nothing to do with!! I am just so sick of it!!!

Starting over... again

Well today didn't start out so great! I weighed in and well lets just say it was not a pretty sight!! I know it is my fault but I even told my husband that I thought the scale was broken! I have been relaxed on my eating not keeping track of my points and eating everything in sight, so no the scale is not broken I am broken!!!! So I feel like I am back at the starting point all over again, but if I have to start over then I am starting over guess it is better then just stopping all together! So my plan is no eating out till my husband birthday and that is 2 weeks aways and to be a good girl and drink my water and stay in my point range and to go to bed early. The last thing is the hardest thing for me but I know it is something I have to do because I am a snack er at night and that is when I throw my good day down the drain! The other plan for today is to get this house cleaned oh my goodness it is pretty bad, hasn't been this dirty in a long time and with my hubby vacation coming up I want the house clean so I don't have to kill my self cleaning while he is off. I am so ready for this vacation we have some plans nothing real big just a couple of fun things. Well time to get the cleaning started!!!!

Feeling Good...

Today has been a great day so far! We got and made pancakes,bacon and eggs for breakfast. Then went over to Target to get Elijah some new jean, He is going out with his Grandma and Papa tonight so Thomas and I are going to go to a dinner and a movie!!! Thomas vacation is coming next week and I am so happy to get to spend some time with him!!! Well going to go take a nap with the Elijah!!!

Struggling...

I have been on a emotional roller coaster for the past few weeks and I have to say I am ready to get off! I am having a hard time with my weight loss and I am so ready to just give up and stay this weight forever! I have change my eating habits and stopped drinking real coke and I only diet coke if they don't have ice tea and I have only lost 10 pounds and I have been doing Weight Watchers since January. I know that is a good amount to lose but I have been at the same weight for 3 weeks now. I want to start walking but out weather has been beyond crazy!
I have been overweight my whole life and I know I will not ever be "skinny" and I really don't want to be "skinny" I just want to feel good about my self. and on top of it I went and got my hair done, I went really light and I guess it I saw it different in my head. I am getting use to it but I don't love it. I wanted a change and well I got one.
I have set a goal for my self and I am going to really try and stick with it, I always quit everything I start and I tired of doing that to my self. So we will see how the next couple of weeks go!!!!

Venting

I am so sick of dirty dishes and dirty clothes!! I feel like that is all i do, i swear i can just finish my last load of laundry and then 30 minutes later i have another pile and i have no idea where it comes from!! I have been really trying to stay on top of it but oh my goodness you would think I have 10 kids and 4 husbands!!!!!!
guess that is the price i have to pay to be able to stay home with my son...

Going to the store to get some grocery and then coming home to do, you guessed it dishes and LAUNDRY!!!!