Elijah...

Elijah is my 2 year old son and I am blessed to get to stay home with him and I love every minute of it, OK that is a lie I love when he listens to me and he is not throwing fits! But none the less I love being a stay at home mom. Elijah is a hand full to say the least, he is so stubborn and I really have no idea where he gets that from (: Oh and does he have a temper ( he gets that from his dad)but he is also so smart and funny and he can be such a loving child. Melts my heart when he comes up to me and does his fish face for kisses!
Anyways a lot of people know that Elijah is not a big talker we can figure out what he wants pretty much but well today was a different story. I am sitting on the couch reading and he is watching WOW WOW WUBBZY for like the 100Th time today, he comes up to me and he is doing his jargon talk he does and he is just going and I have no idea what he is talking about so I ask him again what he needed so again he goes off with his Elijah talk and so I ask again, So I guess Elijah did not like that he actually THREW HIS HEAD BACK AND RAISED HIS ARMS UP AND SIGHED AND ROLLED HIS EYES!!! I thought I was talking to my niece Amber for a second. I didn't know what to do so I asked him one more time what he need HE DID IT AGAIN!!! Then just walked off and guess what he was talking crap to me as he was walking off!! Oh i died laughing It was the funniest thing ever! I was thinking he is two and he is already giving me major attitude!!!
Well I figured out what he wanted which was to paint but he didn't get to since he decided to rip up a bunch of paper!
Oh the joys of motherhood!!!!

Drama!!

So for some reason drama finds me and my family always has and probably always will but I am so sick of it! Are we in middle school? My husband is hard working and stays to himself for the most part and some how he ends up in the middle of someone else problems! and believe me he does not want to be there! Which that just piss me off! Why should he get in trouble for something he had nothing to do with!! I am just so sick of it!!!

Starting over... again

Well today didn't start out so great! I weighed in and well lets just say it was not a pretty sight!! I know it is my fault but I even told my husband that I thought the scale was broken! I have been relaxed on my eating not keeping track of my points and eating everything in sight, so no the scale is not broken I am broken!!!! So I feel like I am back at the starting point all over again, but if I have to start over then I am starting over guess it is better then just stopping all together! So my plan is no eating out till my husband birthday and that is 2 weeks aways and to be a good girl and drink my water and stay in my point range and to go to bed early. The last thing is the hardest thing for me but I know it is something I have to do because I am a snack er at night and that is when I throw my good day down the drain! The other plan for today is to get this house cleaned oh my goodness it is pretty bad, hasn't been this dirty in a long time and with my hubby vacation coming up I want the house clean so I don't have to kill my self cleaning while he is off. I am so ready for this vacation we have some plans nothing real big just a couple of fun things. Well time to get the cleaning started!!!!

Feeling Good...

Today has been a great day so far! We got and made pancakes,bacon and eggs for breakfast. Then went over to Target to get Elijah some new jean, He is going out with his Grandma and Papa tonight so Thomas and I are going to go to a dinner and a movie!!! Thomas vacation is coming next week and I am so happy to get to spend some time with him!!! Well going to go take a nap with the Elijah!!!

Struggling...

I have been on a emotional roller coaster for the past few weeks and I have to say I am ready to get off! I am having a hard time with my weight loss and I am so ready to just give up and stay this weight forever! I have change my eating habits and stopped drinking real coke and I only diet coke if they don't have ice tea and I have only lost 10 pounds and I have been doing Weight Watchers since January. I know that is a good amount to lose but I have been at the same weight for 3 weeks now. I want to start walking but out weather has been beyond crazy!
I have been overweight my whole life and I know I will not ever be "skinny" and I really don't want to be "skinny" I just want to feel good about my self. and on top of it I went and got my hair done, I went really light and I guess it I saw it different in my head. I am getting use to it but I don't love it. I wanted a change and well I got one.
I have set a goal for my self and I am going to really try and stick with it, I always quit everything I start and I tired of doing that to my self. So we will see how the next couple of weeks go!!!!

Venting

I am so sick of dirty dishes and dirty clothes!! I feel like that is all i do, i swear i can just finish my last load of laundry and then 30 minutes later i have another pile and i have no idea where it comes from!! I have been really trying to stay on top of it but oh my goodness you would think I have 10 kids and 4 husbands!!!!!!
guess that is the price i have to pay to be able to stay home with my son...

Going to the store to get some grocery and then coming home to do, you guessed it dishes and LAUNDRY!!!!

Date night...

So Valentine day is in a couple of days and my husband has to work that day so I thought me and the bestie could go out and do something but her dad takes her out and I really don't want her dad to be alone with the kids on Valentines day, so I was just going to hang out with my son and do nothing like I have oh the past couple of years but instead my very loving husband asked me to go out!! WOW I know right?? I was in a little bit of a shock but then I went all stupid trying to get out of going out on Saturday since there is going to be so many people out and I had hurt his feelings and that made me feel horrible. I don't know what was wrong with me this the stuff I have been begging him to do for me but here I am thinking about how many people are going to be out! I don't know what is wrong with me sometimes, so of course I told him we could go out and I think it will be really good for us. Since he has gone to midnights things have gotten so much better with us. He even helped me with dinner tonight which it took everything in me not to redo the salad, Heather it is lettuce not rock sciences who care what it looks like! So as I am saying that to my self i realized what is wrong with me... I feel like I have to control everything and I really don't know why, It hit me today when Amanda brought up the whole this is what you have been wanting from him. It wasn't they way I would have done it. Of course it not they way I would have done it He is not me! So I am going to try really hard on this problem I have. I don't want to hurt his feeling that is the last thing I want to do. My husband can be an ass just like most men out there but that man loves me with everything he has and that is what counts not how he asks me out on a date or if he picks me up a stuff animal. It is the fact that he was thinking about me.

So on Saturday I am going to wear a cute outfit that I have been dying to wear and go out with the man of my dreams with all the other crazy people in love!

Have a wonderful Valentines Day!!!